I realize I am writing a lot this week, there is a lot in my head. I also have realized a few things. There has been a lot going on in my life in recent weeks, from family illness and literal madness and the guilt associated at times with being thousands of miles away and … Continue reading Debris
Light my way Always darkest before Dawn Oh, what would you do if you were me? Don’t assume that I have found this easy -What would you do, if you were me- Frightened Rabbit So, I am sitting here on a Monday, a Monday that should be swim week, A Monday I should be excited … Continue reading Don’t assume that I have found this easy…
As I wrote the heading I will be honest, the metaphor kind of struck me more than this past weekends swim in the dark. This swim figuratively and literally is a swim in the dark with the hope of ending up in the light of a new day all happy and shiny. All past swims … Continue reading Swimming in the dark..
I am not one to overly focus on the potential for failure, i am lucky to have not yet dnf a swim and in fact I am much more in to positive visualization and looking forward to certain things for example, I have a number of things/points I am looking forward to already 1) starting- … Continue reading Failure or the aim is always to come home
I will start with I am not sure where this post is going, I don't plan them, I write them with the thoughts that are running through my mind with no outline, so logical thinking is not always top of the agenda nor is an aim to not contradict myself. It's been a tough week, … Continue reading Swimming, personal questions and loss..
So firstly apologies, I go months without posting and then you get two in the space of days. I think it's logical, due to the fact that the swim is getting closer so I spend more time worrying and over thinking which in turn leads to this, but I digress and want to talk about … Continue reading Guilt or why it’s never enough
Swimming like life is often complicated, I guess I could throw all sports in to that category if I was to look at all the variables but screw it, I stop swimming in middle of some water and I die. In that vein I have often debated why I did not pick a different sport … Continue reading Rambling and pain
It's been an interesting start to the year, I am at my lowest mileage in many years though for perspective I have swam over 50 miles this year so far and I did my first 20km swim week for the first time in a while this past week. But now is also my busy time … Continue reading Born of Frustration
Between Jan 2017 and Aug 2018, I had swam over 1000 miles. At some point approaching Aug, I just felt tired, while I still wanted to get in open water, the idea of a pool, where I admit I do most of the heavy mileage just wasn't appealing. I found myself making excuses, it's time … Continue reading The Lurgy, the fear, the whatever
It’s easy to miss the things we are thankful for, as they often just become part of our everyday and we miss the special element of them. It is also much easier to focus on the things I am not happy about e.g. I only completed two swim events this year, I am not happy … Continue reading Before I forget…Thankful